..well.. i love this one part of the washlands.. no matter what happened.. i turn up here when im down ..

.. it brings back memories.. and the past - which i would prefer to ..forgot.. but in many cases .. you really can't

... today was a day that i could .. talk about loads of things that has been getting in down ..

and well.. just coming here brought it all back .. the mate i was with .. i told her that i had lied to her ..and she was right .. she didn't judge me .. reassured that we go through it

.. she told me that she felt guilty because nobody was there when i needed them

.. and that because she was on a train to devon-ish area she wasn't able to be there

..though if she wished that she would of been able to be there

.. even if it was just to say that not to worry and that things can only get better..

...we can all talk about the things that have been happened.. we can all .. slag other off..

..but for this day it was .. just being able to heared .. to be listened to .. just seem to change the way that everything was shaping out ..

.. i just wish that it was over .. and that i could get over it.. i miss the fact that...i was so wild , fun .. and the way that i can make people laugh even when there down ..

..i wish they could make me laugh .. put a smile back onto my face.. not for it to be fake or put on ..

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